No love for me

I'm alone because im holding to something that never was and never will be.I still care for you and catch myself thinking about you. Its hard to forget someone so amazing like you.You gave me this feeling in my heart,something Ive never felt.You were why i smiled at random times, why i woke up in the morning, but for some reason i threw it all away acting without thinking about the consequences.When i was with him all i could think is about you, i was being unfair to myself i wanted you not him.I found the courange to say good bye to him and say hello to you again, but everything was not the same no more. When you told me that you were inlove, my heart was shattered into a dozen pieces. I wanted to go home and cry for years, my heart ached for days months and still aches unfornuetly.I want to say im over you, but saying it is one thing and being actually over you is another thing.Everything reminds me of you,I still have everything you gave me and i still have everything that reminds me of you,I dont want to let go, i dont want to move on but i think i should since you have.I cant look at someone else or like someone else because NO ONE compares to you.If i ever came close to loving someone it would be you.You are the reason why my heart is so cold, never again do i want to feel this way, then again i rather be loveless for ever if i dont have you in my heart, because nothing matters if i dont have you in my heart<3